Had T yesterday and my brilliant idea to allow her to read things of mine that are very personal and I've never allowed anyone to read is making me extremely anxious. I've recently read this book so I know what's in it I keep thinking it was a mistake to allow her to read it. But I'm not just allowing her to read it, it's in her possession!!! I've parted with it for minimum 2weeks!!!! It's making me very edgy.

I don't regret it because I can't change it but still this is awful! I am so exposed and hate it. T did give me referals for pdocs but I'm so anxious right now just thought of a new person for me to talk to and expose myself to makes me physically ill!

I don't know what to do. Any encouraging comments? Or should I just get over it?