Nobody really knows what is going on in you and what you need except for you. They don't know what it is like to be you. They also won't ever really understand. I am still learning this lesson and was just thinking about it today as my doc left it up to me whether or not to increase my meds. He thought perhaps I could go another week and see if it lifted on its own. I decided to go ahead and increase because he doesn't really know EVERYTHING that is happening in my head and body and how I am suffering etc. I try to remind myself that managing the meds proactively is always better than going to the hospital. All of that isn't to convince you to take the meds. It is just to encourage you to do what you need to do for your own safety and well being and yes even happiness. Which you deserve!