Today I had a minor medical emergency (related to my physical illness) and I had to self administer an emergency dose of iv oxycodone for pain. Anyways my emergency passed and everything is now okay. But for a second some part of me wanted to inject the ENTIRE bottle of iv oxycodone... I don't know what I would have done if I had been alone in the house at that time.

I'm considering asking my pdoc for emergency appointment, but on the other hand I don't feel all that suicidal anymore..