Hi all,

My boyfriend passed away last July 1 unexpectedly of a "catastrophic heart attack"_coroner's findings.

It happened on a Saturday morning and I found out that afternoon.

Enough time has past it doesn't hurt QUITE as much but then I lost my sweet Pug girl on 3/2 so that hurts MORE. She was my child! I'm wearing one of her rabies tags(heart shaped) and that helps some.

I don't feel I'm ready (if ever) for another relationship; he and I had kind of a special bond-both OCD! We helped each other out with coping strategies. His was much worse than mine. I admire how he had the strength to get up every day and be such a giving person. I know I'll never find anyone who was as caring, sweet, thoughtful and a gentleman as he was. He was also very spiritual and would have never had sex before marriage.

just venting,

OCD woman