I guess I'm feeling a little better since last month. My paranoia seems to have backed off. I don't know where it came from. Just out of the blue I knew that someone was tracking me and on purpose trying to frustrate me so I'd make a mistake. It's still not eally clear in my head. Just this big vague idea that someone wanted to hurt me and see me suffering. And I felt like everyone was upset at me. -.-

I tned to hide how I'm doing pretty regularly. I don't really like talking about it. I even try to hide from myself. LIke when I post something about how I'm doing I am very nervous the whole time, especially if I'm not doing so great. And especialy paranoia because of what happened to me with my ex-friends. I just feel like... no one will believe it or take it as a joke or fake. I guess that's it. I don't really know.

I'm still struggling to read logn things so I didn't read back far. I hope everyone is doing okay.