I am really struggling with being to needy. Everthing is so out of sorts in life right now, I am having trouble coping. I keep saying that I will not call or email my T inbetween sessions but something always comes up. He is very sweet and gracious about it but I feel just dreadful over it all. I have an appointment tomorrow and I desperately need to go but I don't want to because I am so ashamed that I had to email him yesterday. I saw him last Friday and Monday, and called him the Saturday before that. Actually I didn't make the call to him a friend did but I ended up on the phone with him.I am so afraid that I bother him. I just hate where I am at in life, it is so difficult. I don't know what is appropriate and what is too much. I don't know. I wish things were different.