I wish it was just journaling in that book but it's a lot of a lot. Sui and violence and very graphic stories and poems. I'm even more anxious now cuz I got up the nerve to call a Pdoc to make an appt. but they closed 30min ago which nothing I researched about the place had any hrs. And the lady on the phone sounded mean. I feel even worse now than before. I wasn't even able to ask if they took my particular insurance.

I swear I will never tell someone else to suck it up and get over it ever again. This is awful. I wanna go back to last week when I felt awesome.

I have thought about sharing some I what I wrote here but didn't want to hurt anyone. I'm just trying to make it through the rest of this week and not panic. Sorry