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Originally Posted by I.Am.The.End.
If it's a delusion, how can you explain people knowing what I'm thinking/feeling without you saying anything or without them even looking at you (so you know it isn't just them reading your body language)?
How can I feel safe around people knowing that now if I develop feelings for them they'll know and bring it up even though I don't want to bring it up at all? I can't keep anything private around these people! I have something to say but think I'm better off not saying it, I can't hide it.
Delusion or not, how do I keep people from trying to read my private thoughts? They already know I have trouble communicating but leaving me no choice what gets communicated or not is only going to make it more difficult for me to communicate at all.
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You are a musician; I presume you hang out with other musicians and artists. They tend to be people who are very sensitive and good at reading other people's faces, body language, and little inflections in tone of voice. I admit that I sometimes find it irritating or unsettling when sensitive people can read me well and figure out things I'd rather them not know.
In those cases, I just have to be better at acting and putting up a front. Making a concerted effort (to appear cheerful when I don't want someone to know I'm depressed, to appear casual if I'm romantically interested in someone and I don't want him to know, etc). This may be difficult if you're not good at acting contrary to your inner states, or if you're not very aware of how you come across to other people. Different people have different levels of social skills in this regard, and I obviously don't know you. If you have anyone you're friendly enough with, it can be helpful to ask other people how you come across to them.