purplemoon, I'm glad you were able to ask for help from someone else and receive it. That's so hard. I think asking for help from others can provide us with support and maybe make having to depend on our T's less all consuming.

When I went to see my first counselor a year and a half ago, I was in the midst of a crisis, was falling apart, was depressed, etc. I had this idea that I would go to therapy and work on my problems there with her. The counselor insisted I share my "burden" with others in my life--friends and family--because my problems were something I kept "secret" from the world. She said she couldn't be "the only one" in my life who I talked about my problems with. She said I needed a support team outside of her office. So she really worked on getting me to share with others. I was very resistant to this idea, but I did do it, and sure enough, just like she said, it was helpful and relieved a lot of my stress to have these multiple people who knew I was having trouble and were supportive.

Anyway, I know it is hard to feel so needy, but maybe if several friends and family members can help, rather than just your T, it will help make you feel you are not placing too great of a burden (your neediness) on any one person.

(((hugs)))