I had the flu all week this week, and now I am beginning to get better. After I get sick I am fearful of getting sick, like VERY fearful, for quite some time after. I felt so awful this week and my throat is still very scratchy (which is concerning me, adding to my panic) and I never want to feel this way again. I've always had hypochondria all through middle school and now high school, and its honestly ruining my life. I see germs everywhere, I can't touch doors (which makes me seem rude because I always wait for someone to open it for me... unless the place is deserted then I have no options) I can't touch my desk at school, I can't touch public writing utensils, and don't even get me started with school bathrooms I just need someone to help me be rational about this. I do get sick all the time, so saying that getting sick isn't a common thing wouldn't be true. I am so worn down by school and stress and anxiety and depression and my eating disorder that my immune system and body just gets shot. Awesome.. Right.. Being a hypochondriac and getting sick on a monthly basis (been to every doctor, I'm PERFECTLY healthy, they all say "hmm. sounds like anxiety.." yeah really?????). Basically what I am asking for is someone to share a personal experience if they struggle with this to know I am not alone, or someone to give me some advice on how to deal with life and living a normal teenage life with this phobia of germs. These panic attacks are getting terrifying, I am trembling as I type right now my whole body is shaking and I am scared.. Please help me it's 3 am and I have nobody else and I can't sleep.