1 of my biggist anxieties has always been getting old and having nothing to show for it.

getting to 50 and looking back over my life and thinking.. well i've not done this, i've not done that, what's been the point?

as for death, i think my biggist fear about death is knowing that 1 day everything will be over. 1 day their won't be any music, any light, nothing. i also believe that i'll die any minit.

someone once told me that always live your days as if they were your last, and i've always had this fear that i could just reach over to pick something up, and that will be the end of it all