Yeah what is the point? I too always ask myself this and never really come up with an answer. I have very similar thoughts when it comes to suicide, I have excuses not to do it, and then get mad at myself and think I should just do it anyway. I battle with myself constantly over it. I want to, but I don't.

Hmm this isn't really helpful to you, wish I had some advice to give. Hang in there, and rants are good, no need to apologise

Just got quite distracted...someone is playing Britney Speares Hit Me Baby One More Time. I don't know what's more worrying - the fact they're playing it or that I recognised it immediately lol.