Hey angelornot, I know I'm new but I read your post and I felt a really strong urge to reply. I understand your pain, I really do. I've been there. I felt the same way about a therapist, that I was a burden if I went with a free one, and my parents were anti-counselors. I assure you that you won't be a burden if you see a free counselor. Most of the time, you can see a free one who is either in graduate school or just beginning their practice and they NEED people to help with credits or whatever. Do you know for sure your parents won't pay for you to see a therapist? Have you told them about the self injury and your feelings? I know how irate parents can be, but I feel as if I would have just talked to them, they would wanted to get me help. I don't know how old you are but I get the feeling you are a teenager? I'm 30, so it wasn't THAT long ago since I was in a similar situation. I feel like if I had known how things would go, I would definitely try and get help at a younger age. Anyway, sorry for my rambling. Please take care of yourself. *hugs*