It causes me a lot of stress. Just one example, people think I should be happy and available all the time and sometimes I need to isolate and clear my head. Then people get grumpy and disappointed because I'm not fun and social. They can't understand I can be uberly social and playful AND also have a side where I need to process process process and wind down. When they get angry with me I get scared, stressed and I feel super guilty.

That is just one aspect.

I often need a med just to relax. I have tried other things but they don't work as well. Meds and journaling. That is my combo.