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Originally Posted by shaanti
Hey angelornot, I know I'm new but I read your post and I felt a really strong urge to reply. I understand your pain, I really do. I've been there. I felt the same way about a therapist, that I was a burden if I went with a free one, and my parents were anti-counselors. I assure you that you won't be a burden if you see a free counselor. Most of the time, you can see a free one who is either in graduate school or just beginning their practice and they NEED people to help with credits or whatever. Do you know for sure your parents won't pay for you to see a therapist? Have you told them about the self injury and your feelings? I know how irate parents can be, but I feel as if I would have just talked to them, they would wanted to get me help. I don't know how old you are but I get the feeling you are a teenager? I'm 30, so it wasn't THAT long ago since I was in a similar situation. I feel like if I had known how things would go, I would definitely try and get help at a younger age. Anyway, sorry for my rambling. Please take care of yourself. *hugs*
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Thank you for replying
. I'm 18. I did ask my parents for a therpapist a couple months ago but my mom won't get me one. A year ago and a year and a half ago I was in treatment twice. The first one was very expensive and they like to remind me. We're not tight on money really but my mom doesn't like to spend it anyways. Always freaked out about my hospital and therapy and doctor bills. So maybe that's why she won't get me one. I have a job but I don't work often, annoyingly. It makes me anxious and afraid they'll fire me. But so does actually working. Also my parents don't know I still SI. Last time I got caught I spent some very unpleasant time in a psych ward. So I say I want to go to therapy but I'm to scared to say why or how bad I'm struggling. I'm also a little concerned about my health not just from the SI (it's not nearly as bad as it has been in the past, though the urges happen all the time) but from starving. So yeah. I don't know what to do.