Hi, watino. I'm so sorry you may have lost a T that you valued & trusted. My feeling is that a T should be able to deal with your anger. You punched a table, not her. I assume you didn't actually damage the table, but just demonstrated anger and it frightened her. Yeah, it probably would have frightened me too. But in therapy all sort of emotions and behavior come out. People withdraw & don't speak, refuse to leave at the end of a session (happened to my T once), throw up, curl up on the floor, throw things, curse, sob hysterically, practice extreme snark, etc.

A T should be able to deal with all of these and work with the client. With proper boundaries, of course, according to the T's level of tolerance. But it sounds like your T did not even attempt to help you deal with your anger but simply abandoned you. This has to do with her own unresolved issues. I could understand it better if you had actually struck her and that she will not tolerate that. But she's obviously uncomfortable with the demonstration of anger. Does she abandon every client who shows anger in a session? So much for being able to freely express emotion in therapy ....

I hope you have a chance to apologize or talk with her about this. Yeah, it would have been better if you had contained yourself better, but this is something you need to work on in therapy with someone who can help you with it, not run away. They do exist, and I hope you find one.