Well, actually, I'm not in school right now so most of time I'm not around musicians. It's the non-musicians that read me, not the musicians. Musicians are at least polite enough to only read body language etc. when it has to do with performance. And what kind of person brings up the fact that you have feelings for them when they do not and can not feel the same way. And it was not in the context of me making him uncomfortable, it was about letting me down easy (which of course didn't happen). I wasn't saying anything in the first place because I knew my feelings wouldn't be returned and I would be less hurt if it was never discussed. I can't control my feelings, but I used to be able to control whether they were talked about or not. Apparently not anymore.