Good points, friend.

I know, in the past, when I've said to myself "Gee, what if I saw myself as disabled?".... that idea has motivated me, made it OK to take care of myself.

Like I've said, I have tape in my head that says I'm a bad person if I try and take care of myself. Bad, in the sense of "How dare I take of myself, who do I think I am, who gave me THAT right?"

But somehow, if I see myself as having a life threatening disease (which I do, depression) I give myself permission for self care. "It's OK for sick people to try and get better!"