I can't have it looked at that is a ticket to the psych ward if I have ever seen one.
I was doing okay I went for about three months and didn't self harm and I was actually happy for almost two of those months.
Now things are bad.
My service dog is sick she may have bone cancer or a joint problem needing surgery and I am terrified.
Its May. May is a BAD month for me something very bad always happens in May. It started when I left my parents and my birthday is in may.
My caregiver who is a friend is fighting with another friend of mine and my caregiver is angry with me because I wont in most cases take her side because I feel she is wrong. As a result I haven't seen my van nor has she helped as far as being my caregiver in almost a month. I need to face her because there is a serious problem the van isn't insured as of the first nor does she have permission to use the van only for herself. I cant even get ahold of her. I am having panic attacks over the idea of talking to her and panic attacks if I can't. A friend was paying the insurance but stopped this month and we need to take the van get it registered and insured but I cant do that without the van nor do I have the money for that so the van needs to come back home and sit in my drive till I get the money.
My caregiver is also mad at my friend that my friend and I hang out and talk. This just makes me really really hurt and sad.
Im afraid if I don't get the van back my friend that paid the insurane on the van will stop paying part of the rent on my place meaning I will loose my home and my dogs