I was diagnosed almost 4 years ago. It took me awhile to fully accept it and to come to terms with it. After my discharge from the hospital they recommended to my doctor that I get checked out for bipolar. When my doctor told me that my first reaction was honestly filled with anger. But after I got home I did some reading and everything just clicked and made sense. Part of the anger was just because I didn't know much about it. At the time a friends grandma was abusive and would yell at my friend a lot... and a lot of my friends said she was "bipolar" (even though she wasn't). That was partly why I was pissed off at first, because I didn't know much and thought that being bipolar meant being like my friends grandma. But the more I learned the more accepting I became and the more it helped to come to terms with it. My advice would be to learn as much as you can, and to give it time. As time goes on, and as you stabilize with the help from meds it gets easier. As with anything just give it time and focus on getting better. Take things day by day.

It's completely normal to feel that way. I felt the exact same thing at first. It is after all a pretty heavy diagnosis.

You're not alone