So my dad and I have a really poor relationship. Ever since I could remember, my dad wakes up after I leave for school and comes home when I go to bed. The times he does come home when I'm awake, he tries talking to me for a few minutes, but by then, I've already explained everything about my day to my mom, and it feels pointless telling him anything. I'm 17 now and going to college in July. I have such a poor relationship with him. It bothers me that I'm leaving home without a connection with him, but I really don't care to try to form one now. I don't love him. Every word that comes out of his mouth bothers me. He's from China and his mentality is set no later than when he left - in the 1970's. He has no modernity at all. And what's more annoying is that he vents to my mom about how he doesn't have a good relationship with me. He doesn't get that he hasn't been by my side for practically my whole life. He has no idea what goes on in my life. I know I should explain things to him if I want him to be apart of my life, but I'm being completely objective when I say that his mind is somewhere else and he won't understand anything I tell him. For example, I'm having my birthday party soon, and he says we should have a set program. NO. We should NOT have a set program because it's a birthday party and my friends will be there. It's not a damn wedding. Another example, I'm going to X University. All he keeps saying is how hard it is to get in - he has NO idea about what the essence of college is all about, because he's from China and went straight to medical school after high school. He has this damn competitive mindset and all that matters is that I got in to a tough school and other people didn't.
SO. ANNOYING. His mere presence makes me angry.
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