That's scary. That would scare me. I already struggle with memory, which has developed over the years. It all started with a defense mechanism to block things out, ... it just got out of control. I seem to block things out in times when I'm stressed, ... so that's nearly all the time, if not. It's not as bad as it is with you. I think you should seek help. Perhaps medication will help. I'm on Propranolol which helps me. Best of luck.