Thank you kindly for your replies everyone. Yes apologizing seems the only option (I've done it) and continuing with her seems highly unlikely as she feels unsafe. I can't prove not guarantee that it won't happen again no matter how much I believe it.

I'm glad to have found this mature community where you focused on "the bigger picture" rather than a judgmental approach. I don't condone my action yet I appreciate being able to speak about it freely.

I work in healthcare myself and think it's everyone's right to feel safe in the workplace. I guess we all can decide individually what's tolerable and what isn't for us?

I'll give you the backstory if you're interested. I'm abroad in Europe and don't speak the local language, can't contact organizations that protect patients' / clients' rights etc. This therapist, I've been meeting her for 2 years and she's very smart but quite stubborn. Once I argued 45 minutes that it's my right to obtain a certificate containing info on my situation, the work we've done and so on, but she refused and said she'd only send it to my next therapist, I won't get it myself. I had to go to a law professor at my university to obtain a copy of the ethical code for psychologists in this country and point the T to the article that details my right to obtain this info.

The same ethical code obligates her to refer me to someone else if she terminates but that hasn't occurred either..

Concerning the mistake she did that led to me punching the table; she herself described it as "being blind to what needed to be done" "letting me down more that I could have imagined". Basically for 2 years she said one thing, made it a central theme of therapy, tried to convince me of it, insisted, but it turns out she meant another quite different thing, and for 2 years she refused to clarify this, despite me asking 100 times what she means, saying that I don't understand. Her reply for 2 years was "you just must trust me more"; but it turns out she was wrong! By her own admission.

So I was ready to forgive her because of all the positive she's done, but asked that she lets me know what her supervisor thinks of this issue. For 10 minutes I asked, she consistently avoided a yes/no answer; thus refusing accountability. So I acted to intimidate her, with a display of force. I punched a table to say - "I will not be bullied". Mistakes I can forgive but I want accountability and a proper apology..

If you can be bothered, let me know what you think. I value your opinions.