Hey all,

after a depression I had and almost killing myself by wanting to jump out of the balcony (i was standing there thinking of it, what kind of a relief stoping the pain for ever would be... but i did not jump, obviously.. my dog started whining when she saw me.. anyway she has kind of rescued me) a normal-hypomanic phase followed, in which i still am. I decided to visit the uni psychologist, i talked about my symptoms and gave me the number of a psychotherapist. I had my first session a couple of days ago. I felt like stupid sitting there and talking about me wanting to kill myself, cause i am really, really not in the phase right now. I talked to him about my insomnias, the book i started writing, taking up projects and classes like crazy and the thoughts racing through my head all the time and all... About my dad who has weird symptoms too... Unfortunately i did not mention other hypomanic symptoms such as spending $700 in the past 2 weeks (which is not me, spending that much on clothes in such a little time) or feeling euphoric all the time.. I mean, it was weird cause i really feel normal now, though i know deep inside i am not. Hypomania or whatever is a really good phase, as you already know. We talked more about my depressions. Well anyway, he cannot diagnose me cause he is no psychiatrist, however he believes I a have a mild manic-depression, probably BD2. I guess he is gonna send me to a pdoc soon, especially if i go depressive again. Next session in 2 weeks. Thanks for reading..