When I was dxd and had my "aha" moment, I didn't struggle to accept my dx.

For me it was more of "Sooo THAT'S the type of crazy I've been all along!"

Which means even though I never knew its name, it wasn't new to me, which in turn means it didn't change a single thing about me.

I too could have been dxd in my teens, but my parents chose the route of denial instead of help. Sometimes when I'm struggling, I also wonder if I would've had a better life if I knew all along.

Perception plays a huge role into whether or not we accept our dx, and also plays a part in how long it takes to reach acceptance.

After researching me to death and learning as much as possible about bipolar, I discovered
I just couldn't accept being ill or defective.
It caused a lot of chaos between my dx and I, because FOR ME personally, its proved to be a negative perception. This mindset also played a part in worsening my condition for quite some time.

For me, it has brought contentment to readopt my undxd perception, which is that I'm wired differently. It has helped me accept my bp as just another facet of my being which means there's a type of harmony between me and the beast. Well most days anyway

Although on the flip side, other members benefit from the ill mindset, as it reminds them to take care of themselves.

Bipolar is a spectrum disorder, and we're all individual, so its up to each of us to find the path that suites us best.

I hope you find your footing soon
aboard the bipolar express