I'm not able to see a doctor because I don't have money. The state I live in now don't provide it. I was on medication and seeing a doctor in another state few months agp. Because I had this weird job where I was making enough in the beginning that medicaid was taken away when I went to get refills. But I wasn't making that much as the hours got shorten and the owner check bounced and such. I ended up getting a new job that fired me right away. So now I am in a state that don't give any kind of medical insurance to women over 42 without children. I am also in a state that one needs a car to move around. I don't drive or have a car so that would be hard for me to do if it was possible. I already rely too much on the family I'm living with. I feel like I am a big burden on them already and it's almost been 2 months that I am here. I love them, but I put myself in this position that I can't seem to move forward. I hope that depression will lift. Thank you so much for replying. It helps.