I was diagnosed in January 2011. It took me until August 2013 to actually totally completely believe that I am Bipolar and that I need medication. What is confusing about this is that it also made sense to me and explained a lot about my life. Shrug. Now you'll see that my acceptance was not even a year ago but I already feel so far away from those feelings. I am so obviously Bipolar. It took a lot to get me there. This board helped a lot. Learning so much about the disorder from people who actually live it. So much more than I ever learned from a pdoc, a book, and article, the dsm. Also it took a lot of really ****** experiences to get it into my head that I actually have this serious illness.

It is a journey. A long tough journey. I think you will definitely get there someday. Stick around here. This is a good place to be while you are processing this.

Good luck and welcome!

Bipolar people are awesome! Bipolar disorder sucks!