I dont really know where to put this...maybe it would be better someplace else..if so i dont care if you move it or not...i just dont know why i am acting the way i am and need responses

I have been sick...from my lump to all those things i had earlier and still wont go away fully...aching joints...chronic pain in the right side, no going the bathroom..have gone two weeks without going...and can ONLY go if i drink cranberry juice. I have been desperately trying to get better and have always been met with resistant. I have gotten yelled at to just get better...i have been told to eat..even though it hurts...i have been told to suck it up. When i was originally sick...I was lying in a fetal position on the floor becuase the pain was so bad....and i was having a water bowel....and my boyfriend and his parents said..ah its nothiing....just dont worry about it...ended up having to go to the ER...the RN wanted me to go to a specialist to check out the pain in my right and left side. Well to get to the REAL point, Im very angry. My boyfriends sister is now complaining of pain in her stomach. (Not to mention the two hamburgers and three sodas she had) All of sudden the family is in an UPROAR...we gotta go to the doctors now...we gotta take her here...gotta take her there....her appendix might have burst. Whole big family reunion in the bedroom while their mom ( she is a certified nursing asstistant., thats what i am...we are practiced to take CARE of people not diagnose them or check them out) but their mother thinks she is qualified...though i should remind her she told me to drink soda.....and the RN later told me to say away from it like fire...anyway...I dont know why i am angry....i guess i am happy that she is getting help...but what about me? I had to BEG them to sign a paper that i give them money every month to make my insurance pay alittle lower...and it got so bad if that i asked again id have to leave....is this normal to be self obessed like this? No body even tried to take care of me..im still sick..but they dont care...they didnt even get out of their bed while i was writhing of the floor of the bathroom and the bedroom...im hurt i guess...its not fair...i want people to care about me to want to help me and me not have to force them to help me...i wouldnt have gone to the ER if i hadnt forced my boyfriend to take me and have his parents agree. I got screamed at for being in pain laying on the couch and when i moved i would cry. And i cant even tell my future in laws about my lump.....my boyfriend even agreed that they would say how ironic it would be that i have a lump now that my future mother in law has cancer....maybe its my fault...maybe im to self involved...i just wanted my pain to go away and everyone screamed at me and gave me more stress and hated that i lost 20 pounds and ive been sick..but their daughter gets sick (go figure like i said after eating two hamburgers and three sodas) I dont know...i feel bad for her i really do.....i want her to get better and i offered her tips..not that she took any of them...i always give my advice to everyone...but its never taken. Why cant people just want to help me like they help others...im a really screwed up thinking these self involved thoughts or is this normal? Id love any kind of response.
Thanks love, Inny