I think you have learned ...

It's past time that you've learned to control your planned / calculated outbursts of anger and violence (that aren't serving you nor the people you're attempting to manipulate, bully and control very well) and learn other ways to communicate about your feelings of betrayal, frustration and anger without scaring the @#$%! out of and traumatizing other human beings!

Now it's time to accept and implement this lesson and move on ...