Mind doesn't seem to be working and body too. I read other forum threads and I would like to be supportive but couldn't come up with words that were.

I wish I stop beating myself up and start doing something to improve my life ...in the right direction because ever time I make a move it haven't. I never ever thought I would be almost homeless. I never imagined my life would turn out like this. My parents worked hard so we can have better lives and I just didn't.

I had them to turn to when they were alive, but they are gone and none of my siblings talk to me. They say my bad behavior caused them to abandon me. Sure, I blame myself because I really didn't know I had depression again.

I'm really sorry, I seem to be flooding out my problems.

I just want to feel good today.