Thanks, everyone, for the support and ((((hugs)))). I am still feeling down, but hope I will come out of it soon. I think I may just go to therapy next week and not deal with/talk about "the goal." Dealing with the goal is depressing me. Or maybe having to deal with the goal with T is depressing me. I don't know. I just know it would feel good to sit there for an hour and listen to T talk.

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It just means that you have possibly turned a corner to fulfill your needs and the therapist is moving forward in goal setting to set the pace of your needs at this time and your future to help you expand your horizons and options in the future.

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He completely let me choose the date when I wanted to accomplish the goal by and I did. He was surprised I chose so soon, and said well we better get busy. I have external pressures making me try to deal on this timeline. Maybe I should give them up and take longer, I don't know. But I feel I've been "taking longer" forever. There are big financial consequences to delaying.

I'm irritated at myself for getting depressed at the prospect of dealing with this stuff. Happened last month and I was depressed for a week. Almost childish response. Bugs me. Grow up, sunrise, I want to say. I need all my resources for this, not some moping-about-low-energy state of being.

I think I need a vacation from life. And when I return, everything will have magically solved itself, right?