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Originally Posted by mulan
I say I am the one who is wrong, because I don't fit any of this groups, I don't fit anywhere. ANd it makes me feel and be more lonely. I'm already the quiet observer. I don't feel comfortable to share, I have nothing to share... and I wonder why people aren't more like me. They seem to be all the opposite way. Because I will always sense that I'm the different one, the only one appart, and I am.
Why can't people build friendship on a different way, why can't they have fun taking about anything else. Because being the one who is sitting there just listening and realizing that I am so different, that I'm in the outside is heartbroken. Is realy almost impossible to find someone more like me. And that is sad. Is sad seeing everyone around starting to get very close to each other, while I'm more and more forgotten.
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i get the impression that you are putting a little too much importance on "fitting in". it is impossible to have it both ways, you don't want to participate in the conversations yet you want to be part of the group.
i highly doubt this group of people are going to change their ways and topics of conversation to make you feel comfortable. if you want to be are part of this group...unfortunately for you, you are going to have to do as the group does. by definition a group is a collection of people that share the same interest( by most definitions)
if you don't want to do as the group does, you are going to have to find other people that share your beliefs/comfort level/values. everyone build friendships in different ways..so to answer your question about why people can't build friendships a different way..i suppose they could, but it appears in your case the people you are surrounded by choose not to.
perhaps instead of beating yourself up about being so different..maybe you could learn something from these conversations.....maybe even ask questions?
your perception creates your reality, if you perceive sex to be "bad" in any way, you would be predisposed to feel a lot more uncomfortable about the subject. i don't know your personal views on the subject nor do i condemn them either way..everyone is entitled to their opinion.
it is difficult for you to understand why they are having so much fun talking about sex because you have never experienced it, when the time comes for you, you'll understand. until then..i imagine you will feel like i don't understand what the big deal is.
hopefully this will shed some light on a subject enough light is not being shed on nearly enough.
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