I'm a university student who's depending on parents financially.
Excuse my bad grammar btw, English is not my first language.
I spend too much time web surfing and I hardly do any studying.
I've been having this problem since middle school. I tried fixing the problem many times bit failed miserably. my parents are worried and upset about my problems and we've had emotional outbursts and spent seeks crying but I still came back to the same problem. my grades are terrible and I might get expelled even. I'm so sick and disgusted by myself and I feel so sorry for mom and dad. they are the best parents that you could ever ask for. they provide for me, love me, and worry about me. they didnt do anything to deserve a failure like me but well... isnt life ironic. I wish I wasnt born in the first place. I wish my parents had a child who listens to them and finctions as a normal human being, instead of a trash like me. I feel like a waste of space and resources most of the time. recently, all I've been thinking about is how it would be much better for the society if I died and donated my body parts to leople who need them. they'd be well and happy again and it'll be worth it. but I dare not think of actuallt killing myself because my parents will be sad. I am their only child after all.
sorry for jibber jabbering. what I'm trying to say is that I want to escaoe this endless loop of internet addiction and actually live my life that's jusy waiting for me out there.
thank you kindly if you read this boring **** through.