I feel the same way as you sometimes. I question why I am still here. I get angry at myself thinking if only I was smarter, if only I finished college things would be better. I have thought of ending it and always find reasons not to. I agree with Useless Me that in some way God has a beautiful plan for all of us, we just can't see it now. It's also hard in that others don't understand our pain and anguish. Please don't feel guilty about posting your problems or consider it "whining." Post away and vent. We love you and we understand.