I'm bipolar and have been taking meds for a long time now... I still go through cycles and have accepted that I will probably be this way for the rest of my life. There's a huge concern I have, my feelings are becoming less and less alive. i.e. my grandmother died this past October, I didn't cry and didn't feel anything. Love for other people isn't there anymore. I'm afraid that all the medication that I have been taking will castrate all of my feelings, good and bad. I'm currently going through some bad time in my marriage, it seems we're headed for divorce, my thoughts and rational is telling me to save it but i don't feel anything.