My husband doesn't get it. He says he likes to 'call me out' when I'm being irritable - he's says he's holding me accountable so I stop acting like a b**** and start controlling myself. Then he pulls out his phone and tries filming my reaction to show my pdoc. I feel like he's just making a spectacle of me right now because he sits there and tells me how ridiculous I'm being.

I can't take this anymore. Every time he takes a step forward with understanding my condition, he takes 10 steps backward by acting like he knows everything. He pretty much says he wants to make me feel bad in situations where I feel like I can't even control what's coming out of my mouth. He knows my medication is in the middle of being changed and that I'm trying. But it gets so hard. I just feel like giving up on everything when he can sit there and laugh at me and make it out as though I WANT to be like this and that he needs to "call me out" when im doing something he sees as wrong. Far out, I can't be happy, I can't be sad, I can't be irritable. It seems all these things are just a problem to him. He knew what he was getting into when he married me, but I just don't feel he tries to understand.

I hate this and don't know what to do. I want to pack up and leave, I feel like I'm crashing down and I just don't know what to do. I can't see my pdoc until Wednesday because he's away..