OH Sunrise, I don't think we can do things in such a planned way? That would be an awful lot of pressure that one just couldnt' meet? I understand the financial pressures. I pay out of pocket for T also and at times I get awful anxiety over how long my healing is taking. I have to remind myself at times that I am worth it! But when you have a children to support it becomes just another complication.

I hope you feel better soon!