you know, apart from you guys on here who are so understanding and compassionate, i feel no one else listens to me.

i've been sent to mental health team on an emergency appointment. all they told me is i am not bad enough and i have to wait 2 years. i went to tell my doc today how i've been treated, she is trying to fing me the correct person to see ispdoc and my mum is paying orivately. which is brilliant.

but this will take time. what are we supposed to do whilst waiting. keep climbing the walls, keep shoving sleeping tablets to get through the day, keep having thoughts about how nice it would be if i could just disappear. i told them i would never harm myself because of my kids. there's only so much you can take though. if i had a broken arm or leg it would be sorted. because i'm still standing they send me away with promises and pills and a smile and a try to be positive. i also was told prozac is the best thing for me - yet i feel no better after 3 weeks - give me strength

yes it's so easy to be positive isn't is - so easy - no one would be depressed if it were so easy to be positive right?

excuse me if i'm wrong but i thought it is a chemical imbalance in the brain. silly me. oh well, sorry for ranting, but you have to have schitzophrenia or cut your wrists or take hundreds of pills before you get any help here.

uk sux. jinn x