Spent the day feeling kind of down, but not really depressed. Then I went for dinner with my friend, who is pregnant, and her husband. I'm happy for her, but it's hard for me to be around someone pregnant because it makes me feel like a failure for having no kids. This has been on my mind a lot. I'm considering just getting a donor and doing it on my own, but I'm scared... especially scared of what pregnancy could do to my mood. I haven't decided what I'm going to do, but I'm thinking about it a lot.