I remember replying to another post you made similar to this one not too long ago...I'm not going to go to another thread & *not* reply to you since you need a reminder.
You've found a good place to express your feelings. Most of us are here because we're dealing with *something*....keep posting around if you can & you'll see how supportive this community is ^.^
Sometimes we need to be reminded we're not the only one, that there's others too.