First of all I am not looking for a diagnosis. The only thing I am searching for is someone who has had similar issues that maybe can shed some light on what I'm going through. I have no means to see a good therapist and am trying to reach peace through self-help.
At first I thought my issues were just high anxiety. I have no rituals and everything is all in my mind. I am a very kind and compassionate person. I also try my best to be religious ( I do tend to mess up though).
Since I was young I always seemed to be a bit more anxious than others. I would always pick scabs or "play" with my eyebrows. Since I have gotten older I tend to bite my nails and on occasion pick my eyebrows.
This is not what bothers me...what bothers me are my thoughts. I have blasphemous religious thoughts, thoughts of violence toward my loved ones, and just negative thoughts in general. I don't have them all the time...but when they pop in my head I immediately start questioning myself. I know that u would never act upon any of these intrusive thoughts but it shakes me. I wonder why in the world I would think such thoughts in the first place!
Anyone that could weigh in or anyone who has went through a similar experience and found peace I would looove to know how you coped! Thank you very much!