thankyou so much for revealing all that katheryn i was so desperate last night i actually did concider pills, i have so many for different things. but i cried and cried and thought of my kids. it's so hard when you dont want to be here, but you have to be.

i wish i could blank it all out. sometimes i feel resentment towards my kids for keeping me here, i dont show that obviously, but at the moment i feel i am in hell. and all the crap that has been going on in here doesn't help. i feel like people despise me for the way i always moan, yet i know i have support. sometimes i think i am going mad to be honest. a slight push and i'll be over the edge. thankyou for caring and writing, pls give dec my love, you are both saints as far as i'm concerned.

kerry xoxoxox