Woke up usual 3am. Tried t mediated myself back to help. Tried to listen to positive audio on YouTube. Wrote to someone to pray for me as he is religious because god isn't listening to me. I am in a lot of pain. Thinking about my doggie daughter I had to give up and what a lousy provider I am that I can't provide for myself and a dog. Other people do it! Does this forum thing work?