Thank you for the support. I have a meeting with a low income therapist on the 22nd but I can't afford to go often with my income.

My boyfriend really does mean well and has showed he cares about me, but he feels pretty often like he can't make me happy, which I guess he can't because I can't even make me happy. And I guess that's a lot of extra stress for him too.

I just wish I could feel normal and be able to do things normal people do like go out without anxiety and work without panic attacks and speak to people without having to excuse myself to go cry. It's hard. And no one congratulates you on making it through everyday like this, they just treat you like you're damaged or they pity you or they look down on you.