I am sorry of your tremendous loss and betrayal However I don't want to respond or give advise to quickly.However I would like to ponder in my heart and mind what you have written. But the first emotion I have experienced is great sadness.I believe that I am feeling the burden to cry with you in your time of great grief. And yet the words tremendous loss and betrayal and great grief only seem to scratch the surface of the pain you have had and endure. Thanks for sharing your story and reaching out to us. And as far as the replies that were taken out, I am glad that they are gone.your situation requires a mature and well seasoned person or persons to minister to you.You have an open heart and that is the best place for you to be in at this time. God looks into the heart of a man. But we as people sometimes fail to do this. I know that by knowing this it dose not lessen the pain. I have to go to work now. But my heart goes out to you and I am grieved by the burden of the false guilt and false accusations that have not been yours to carry . Smile