Trust me, you don't want to feel that way, I've been there. About 8 months ago I wished exactly the same thing and it happened. It was terrible. It made me a monster who was so hurtful to other people - I couldn't believe my own actions. But at night, all the things I did would come back into my thoughts and then the tremendous guilt would begin. You see, guilt is not an emotion as such, you feel it but it's not something that works like an emotion really, it comes to you to haunt you. Deep down you know what you're doing is so bad even if you don't feel it on the surface. When you wish for emotionless states, it at first appears as if all emotions, good and bad have left you. Only the good stuff has, the bad stuff are there, very much so, you just cross over the line so that you see it from within the bad side and thus you think your neutral, but you're far from it. An emotionless person, is essentially a psychopath, with no conscience, so you can imagine the heinous things you can do when in such a state. It's definitely a no-no.

It might work when you're out there in public, but when you're alone at home and it's just you and the bedroom walls, man, then it hits you hard. I got to a point where I began to cry for the first time in my life. It's the most horrible thing that I've ever experienced.

I remember walking in the street, and someone would just smile at me, perhaps even a pretty girl, and I would just stare back with this blank, sick look on my face, to the point where I would scare the you know what out of that person and they would just look down and away. But, because I was a monster I didn't care. I had some people almost in tears. I would be rude to the people behind the counter serving my fast foods, not being rude per se, but they smile and are friendly when they serve you and I would just grab my stuff and walk away. I couldn't go back to that outlet again, to this day. I've burnt bridges I can never repair again, because of this mental state. I makes you one vile, toxic, horrible human being. You don't go neutral, you go totally evil.

Oh, and another thing, if you think you're lonely now, wait till you become emotionless, you become an island my friend. Everybody walks wide rings around you just to get out of your way. It might feel great in the beginning, but everybody begins to hate you and avoid you like the plague. And if you reach out, they dismiss you with a smile and "sorry, I'm really busy now and can't really talk to you". It's pure hell.