At the moment my schedule with T is weekly DBT group sessions, and every 4 weeks individual sessions as I have been doing much better over the last few months. Next group is tomorow, individual next week (if I can get time off work, not sure yet).

I don't want to disappoint my T, but truth is I have been doing as well over the last couple weeks. I haven't relapsed, but think about harming myself a lot, don't want to eat anything or when I do I feel so guilty I want to purge. Also I haven't seen my horses in almost two weeks, because I just can't be bothered to go and see them...

I'm holding on as good as I can, but I've realized that all this is caused by the stable owner's father's passing. I went to the funeral and haven't been the same since. I know it's due to a lot of unresolved issues around my own father's death. So now I wonder if I should ask T to see her earlier, or if I should simply stick it out until next week. I don't think I'm doing bad enough to ask to see her earlier, but I also hate not seeing my horses, but I don't know if I can face the stable's owner at the moment...