So I finally did what I had to do, I left my boyfriend. I've been having a feeling lately that he's been seeing other girls, and I was right. I found my proof last night and told him I was done. He ended up freaking out, the name calling started and so on.
I'm trying my hardest to stop thinking about him but I just can't. I can't stop thinking what if he gets medication for his bi polar will everything change and be better?
I love him, but he's killing me emotionally.
I have to walk past his house twice every day to drop my son at daycare, if I see him and the girl he's been cheating on me with I don't know what I will do. I'm so heart broken.
He kept saying last night that he's going to ruin my life and will do anything to make me regret wasting his time ..yet it feels like I wasted mine!!
I'm hurting bad..I just want to get over him and stop thinking about him. I know I deserve so much better

All I keep thinking is "what if he tries to talk to me again and I fall for it" I feel like a thousand emotions right now. I don't know where my head is
I feel like I will never trust another person again, ever.
I can't wrap my head around that he's actually been with another girl. He still won't own up to it though.. I feel so sick and weak. I don't know what to do