I'm feeling really low. After hitting near rock bottom after trying to get off of my meds, my shrink and therapist recommended that I get back on them. For almost two weeks after I got back on them, I started feeling better than I had in a long long time. I was feeling optimistic for once.

It's a week later, and I'm feeling anxious all of the time now. That in turn has made me feel depressed and hopeless again. My shrink is looking to fiddle with my meds to create the right balance, and maybe that will do something, but I'm just so sick of it. I've been on antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication since I was ten years old. It's more than twenty years later, and after a suicide attempt, two hospitalizations, and more med changes than I can count or even remember, it's the same old thing over and over. The doctors always say that *this* time it will work. *This* time things will be better for real. At what point do I just accept that nothing will really work?

I guess I'm not really looking for answers...I just need a little bit of support.