Thank you so much to all of you. Your empathy, kindness and wise words give me solace. I also have been told by my niece (his eldest daughter who I cherish) that even though I may have been the one struggling with mental issues, I've been the sanest in helping her sort through her range of emotions (from pity to resentment coupled with the guilt of not wishing to have much to do with him). That almost makes me thankful for the painstaking awareness we get through our pain...